Sometimes
in life, he kept on wondering what is actually happening with people that lived
close to him. Sometimes he always wonders’ what is actually in their mind that
he have no idea what was going on. But also sometimes, it made him wonder if it
was his mistake that all of this didn’t go right... Didn’t go like how it has
planned to become true? Was he the person who was supposed to be put at fault
for everything or was it something else in their life that he would never know
or ever find out? His mind kept on thinking about all of this and he was afraid
if at the end his mind would go ballistic and he could end up in a tragic misery
because all of this. This curse that was given to him by mistake, he doesn’t
know what to do with it anymore!
Even he couldn’t find his way back home that night after he had enjoyed his time partying too much with his friends, he didn’t bother about anyone else apart from his own greed and his ego came over flowing out of himself as he doesn’t know who he was anymore. He gritted his teeth against each other, at the same time gripping his fist so tight, when he remembered the old man he accidently went rude to that night. “It was only a mistake...” he said in a tone, nobody could even hear his voice. He felt his heart trembled apart from his stupidity before.
He ran against that old man that night and he scolded him for being in the middle of the road. He looked at the man that seems to be homeless, “What are you doing in the middle of the road, old man?! Can’t you see I am walking here?!” he asked the man who was actually at the side of the road only. The old man only looked at him and apologizes “I am sorry, son. I really did not see you coming this way...” the old man said to him, as he bow lower to him for forgiveness, but he pushed the man away from him, “Argh! You don’t simply touch me!” he shouted to him.
The old man who was only wearing a ragged clothes for a very cold night shivered when he pushed him away, “Stay away from here!” he said to the old man. The old man only inhaled a deep breath and was pity with a man who got the look but thinks that he was too perfect, he doesn’t care about anyone else’s feeling apart from his own. The old man nodded his head, “If you say so, son. Only remember that, it is not just you who needs to live in this world. Listen to their cries before you go to sleep, you would understand how others too feel in their heart...” he old man said to him. He was infuriated with what the old man said to him when he decided that he wanted to push him away, “Argh! Just shut up!” he shouted to that man and reached his hand out to get rid of him, but at the end, he fell on the floor nearby the apartment that he was living in, the old man wasn’t there anymore...
He raised his eyebrow, “What the hell?” he said and wondered if he was illuminating. He wondered if he only sees shadow but at that time, he couldn’t think of anything else anymore as his brain were still having a major headache from the whole lot of beer he had drank earlier. “I am just dreaming!” he said to himself, but somehow, he heard the voice of the old man once again...
“The gift has chosen you... Only one day, you will find another person that had been given this gift too for you to end it all...” the voice spoke to him, and suddenly he started to hear different voices in his head. They were crying for help because they doesn’t know what to do anymore. Their boundaries in their life, and their darkest time were spoken to him and he was sure that he doesn’t want to know any of it.
“What has happened to me?!” he asked himself, as he pushed himself up and wanted to go back to his house that was only across the road. He could only manage to find his way home, but those voices kept on talking to him. He doesn’t know who does it came from, but it was disturbing his mind so hard, he couldn’t bear with it anymore. The sound that he heard from that old man had said to him that it was a gift, but he felt like it was more likely a curse to him. He felt his legs couldn’t be standing up anymore as he fell down on the couch he was standing next too.
“Another person that has the gift that has been given this gift too to end it all...” he could still hear the man’s voice talked to him, alongside the other voices that were still crying to his ear. He was too drunk at that time, with his brain isn;t functioning well, he could only groaned when he felt the pain that was tormenting his heart. All he wanted for all of it to stop.
Even though he was aching for all of it to be over, he had been living his life for almost a year with the curse. How he felt his heart ache when what has happened to him not too long ago came back to his mind. He doesn’t know what his mistake was but he remembered that he was really drunk that night he didn’t even realize what was he doing.
He inhaled a deep breath as he sealed his eyes shut as he doesn’t want to know what will happen in the future time anymore, but how can he ever walked away, as his life was already bounded with the destiny that he doesn’t want to see. How he wished that he could have only forfeit but... “There will be only another life in the future time as none of us know or able to see...” he said on his own. His eyes were darting away in his room that was solemn and dark at that time where he wishes that he could only be left alone, but... how redundant his heart felt when he could still hear them cries in their sorrow heart... Perhaps the premonition of that old man was right... After that night, he don’t waste his time to be drinking too much anymore, because each time he wanted to sleep, those voices kept on coming back to his mind.
Matsumoto Jun felt his heart triggers when their cries were tormenting his heart. “Argh!! Why does it all have to be like this!?” he asked himself infuriately as he turned around from his position before facing upward on his bed towards the side. He grimaces alone, as he felt how rapidly his heart was palpitating. He recalled back once before when he met the old man at the side of the road before had said to him once again after a few days of his suffer alone...
“Find another existence of your life from another side of the world that have suffered the pain as you do to end it all...” the man said to him in a sullen voice.
It wasn’t a few days ago but it has passed almost a year ago and the voice of that man were still playing around his mind. He did try to find that man once again but he still couldn’t find him. He had went from Tokyo, to Fukuoka, to Osaka, Nagoya and ended up all of his way to Hokkaido to find whoever it is and was it even true that there is another person that is like him exist in this world beyond his imagination to get to know who he really was, but there was no luck. He still trying to understand what did that man had said to him about somebody else that has a ‘gift’ just likes him... And only if he had met the other person, the pain and suffer that they both had like this will end. Perhaps at the end of time where the world collides, he would find whoever it was.
Matsumoto sighed, “I don’t think so it is possible...” he said alone as he still believed that he was the only one that is alive and is like that. Matsumoto sighed and he turned his body around and fell flat on his bed once again, sealing his eyes shut as he tries not to think about anything anymore. The voices that he had heard before had decreased somehow at the end. He heard the clock in his room was still ticking as he opened his eyes for a short time to looked at what was the time right then. He inhaled a deep breath as it was already three in the morning and he was still wide awake and haven’t slept yet.
After so long years of trying his luck, finally he had reached his dream to be who he wanted to become in life, but this is not the way to end it all...
“When will all of this end...” he said to himself as breathe in and out slowly as the voices that he had heard before fades away and he was only left there on his own. He felt his heart ease finally as at the end; he had fallen to sleep... How he wanted to wake up and was no longer alive anymore... He knows that if he couldn’t find whoever that person that was told to him, it would be the end of his life... and he knows that some part of him isn’t ready to die yet.
‘I will find whoever you are...’ he said in heart before he was captured in his fantasy and dreams.
**
As the night he has long to end has passed away, as another day has started as the sun that was hidden from the atmosphere before has came back to life, brightens up the world that before was dark cold and grey, everybody started to live their life like their normal and regular days. Everybody was busy with their daily jobs for those who were working, and some were busy with their studies for some who are still in the Universities and some are not doing anything at all, but that was super busy inside one of the best Tokyo Event Management’s office as there was an event to be coming up soon at the town.
A man that was wearing a light brown shirt was printing all the documents that needed for the preparation as he didn’t even hear that somebody was calling for his name. “Ninomiya San!” somebody called for him, but he didn’t even bother to turn around and look at what the person wanted from him. He raised his eyebrow, “What is it?” he asked Miyoko, hid new secretary there who had called for him. He heard her footsteps were walking towards his direction and her breath that doesn’t seems to be at ease at all. She was gasping for some air, and it made him wondered on his own, ‘What is it with this girl?’ he asked in his heart when she stopped right beside him. He heard that she was still breathing uneasy. He raised his eyebrow and turned his gaze towards her.
Miyoko Fujiwara, a fresh diploma holder from the Tokyo University only started working there for just two weeks. Her age was only twenty four years old but it seems like she looked slightly younger than she was supposed to look and that day, she was wearing a bright yellow blouse with a black pants and looking gorgeous like she always does. She was inhaling a deep breath to keep her calm for a short time and looked away from Ninomiya Ka\unari’s direction and finally manages to looked at him once again after a few second had passed.
“Ninomiya San, I have something to ask regarding the event tomorrow,” she said to him as she was holding some documents in her hand. Ninomiya looked at her when he took the proposal letter in her hand, “What is it that you are not sure about?” he asked her. Ninomiya is one of the managers in the company and he always is one of the people that would be managing an event if there are any upcoming events.
He flipped the papers of the documents he was holding in his hand. He bite his lips lightly as he inhaled a deep breath when he see most of it were already settled for the 6th Anniversay for the Prime Mall of Tokyo. “It seems like its all good here, Miyoko,” he said to her, but somehow Miyoko felt frightens, but she only nodded her head, “But Sir....” she tried to tell him something but Ninomiya already changed the page of a proposal that was still unsigned... Ninomiya looked at the paper that was still clean and proper, “You couldn’t manage to get his signature for the agreement of the guest artist for this event is it?” he asked Miyoko directly. Miyoko nodded her head, “I know that Prime Mall wanted him to be the star of the night, but I tried to call him so many times, but I was rejected each time I tried to reach for him...” she said to Ninomiya.
Ninomiya only nodded his head, “I understand that, Miyoko.” he said to the girl. She bite her lips lightly as she was afraid if her manager would get angry with her, but he didn’t say much. Ninomiya inhaled a deep breath as his mind were playing around with himself on how to get this so call big super star of Japan to go to the anniversary. Perhaps it is not a problem for Prime Mall to be paying him even though at a high cost because they really wanted him to be there, but it could be too that this guy wanted a raise. Maybe because his name is on top of the list, he don’t think that 500,000 yen is enough for the pay.
‘I will get your ass to the anniversary in anyway.’ he said in his heart. He turned his gaze to look at Miyoko, “It’s okay. You can hand this to me,” he said to her. Miyoko only nodded her head, “Yes, Sir.” she said to him and went away from there. Ninomiya inhaled a deep breath when he looke at the proposal letter that was still empty and the anniversary only left two more days and without him realizing anything, it seems like the day that has been going on for quite sometimes would end soon as the sky outside has dimmed down slightly already.
Ninomiya closed his eyes shut for a short time, “I will get you no matter what, Matsumoto Jun,” he said in a tone that nobody could even hear him and closed the document in his hand. He doesn’t know why, but he really want this guy to come.
**
“I need some time off!” he said on his own when he walked out from his bedroom and went towards the kitchen. The time on the clock was already eight forty five at night and his days didn’t seems that easy that day as he was so packed up with the preparation for his upcoming album release and all. Matsumoto opened his fridge door when he grabbed the bottle of orange juice and pour it into the empty glass that he had grabbed earlier before he went there. He took a sip of the juice and put the empty glass in the sink as he felt relieved when the cold juice went down his body. “That felt just nice,” he said alone when he was on his way towards his living room hall.
He grabbed the remote control on the table in front of the couch that he sat almost every day and turned on the television to see if there was any updates on the daily world. “Maybe I should take some time off soon.” He said to himself when he sat on the deep blue couch and rested his arms on the side of the couch and closed his eyes for a short time. He could only listen to the voices from the television.
“We couldn’t wait to see Matsumoto Jun on the Prime Mall anniversary!” a few girls screamed as they were interviewed on those pop culture television show. Those voices that kept on talking about how excited they were to see him didn’t excite him at all, “As if I agreed to go,” he said alone when he felt slightly irritated with the programme, he opened his eyes once again and changes the television programme to something else. Sure it is because of them, he had reached up until that level. Sure if it wasn’t for them, who was he that day, but he guess that nobody knows what he was going through with his life.
“I guess it is just my problem alone...” he said in his heart when suddenly he heard his mobile phone rang. He furrowed his eyebrow when he wondered who would be calling him at this time. “I thought they said there isn’t any more project tonight!” he groaned so hard and took out the phone from his jeans pocket. He just reached home from work, and he still didn’t changes what he had worn earlier yet as he wanted to take a short time on his own.
He furrowed his eyes when he looked at the number that was calling him was unknown in his phone, “Who would be calling me?” he wondered alone. The ringing tone kept on playing, when he felt in his heart he doesn’t want to pick it up, but he was doubtful if it could be something that was important. “If it is you, Mr Hiyoshi, I would kill you,” he said as he thought about his manager. He pressed the answer button, “Hello.” he said in a mid tempo tone.
“Hello there, Mr. Matsumoto. I am Ninomiya Kazunari from Tokyo Dailylife and I wanted to ask you regarding the proposal of the Prime Mall Anniversary.” he heard the man speak to him. Matsumoto furrowed his eyebrow, ‘I thought I already say no...’ he said in his heart.
Even he couldn’t find his way back home that night after he had enjoyed his time partying too much with his friends, he didn’t bother about anyone else apart from his own greed and his ego came over flowing out of himself as he doesn’t know who he was anymore. He gritted his teeth against each other, at the same time gripping his fist so tight, when he remembered the old man he accidently went rude to that night. “It was only a mistake...” he said in a tone, nobody could even hear his voice. He felt his heart trembled apart from his stupidity before.
He ran against that old man that night and he scolded him for being in the middle of the road. He looked at the man that seems to be homeless, “What are you doing in the middle of the road, old man?! Can’t you see I am walking here?!” he asked the man who was actually at the side of the road only. The old man only looked at him and apologizes “I am sorry, son. I really did not see you coming this way...” the old man said to him, as he bow lower to him for forgiveness, but he pushed the man away from him, “Argh! You don’t simply touch me!” he shouted to him.
The old man who was only wearing a ragged clothes for a very cold night shivered when he pushed him away, “Stay away from here!” he said to the old man. The old man only inhaled a deep breath and was pity with a man who got the look but thinks that he was too perfect, he doesn’t care about anyone else’s feeling apart from his own. The old man nodded his head, “If you say so, son. Only remember that, it is not just you who needs to live in this world. Listen to their cries before you go to sleep, you would understand how others too feel in their heart...” he old man said to him. He was infuriated with what the old man said to him when he decided that he wanted to push him away, “Argh! Just shut up!” he shouted to that man and reached his hand out to get rid of him, but at the end, he fell on the floor nearby the apartment that he was living in, the old man wasn’t there anymore...
He raised his eyebrow, “What the hell?” he said and wondered if he was illuminating. He wondered if he only sees shadow but at that time, he couldn’t think of anything else anymore as his brain were still having a major headache from the whole lot of beer he had drank earlier. “I am just dreaming!” he said to himself, but somehow, he heard the voice of the old man once again...
“The gift has chosen you... Only one day, you will find another person that had been given this gift too for you to end it all...” the voice spoke to him, and suddenly he started to hear different voices in his head. They were crying for help because they doesn’t know what to do anymore. Their boundaries in their life, and their darkest time were spoken to him and he was sure that he doesn’t want to know any of it.
“What has happened to me?!” he asked himself, as he pushed himself up and wanted to go back to his house that was only across the road. He could only manage to find his way home, but those voices kept on talking to him. He doesn’t know who does it came from, but it was disturbing his mind so hard, he couldn’t bear with it anymore. The sound that he heard from that old man had said to him that it was a gift, but he felt like it was more likely a curse to him. He felt his legs couldn’t be standing up anymore as he fell down on the couch he was standing next too.
“Another person that has the gift that has been given this gift too to end it all...” he could still hear the man’s voice talked to him, alongside the other voices that were still crying to his ear. He was too drunk at that time, with his brain isn;t functioning well, he could only groaned when he felt the pain that was tormenting his heart. All he wanted for all of it to stop.
Even though he was aching for all of it to be over, he had been living his life for almost a year with the curse. How he felt his heart ache when what has happened to him not too long ago came back to his mind. He doesn’t know what his mistake was but he remembered that he was really drunk that night he didn’t even realize what was he doing.
He inhaled a deep breath as he sealed his eyes shut as he doesn’t want to know what will happen in the future time anymore, but how can he ever walked away, as his life was already bounded with the destiny that he doesn’t want to see. How he wished that he could have only forfeit but... “There will be only another life in the future time as none of us know or able to see...” he said on his own. His eyes were darting away in his room that was solemn and dark at that time where he wishes that he could only be left alone, but... how redundant his heart felt when he could still hear them cries in their sorrow heart... Perhaps the premonition of that old man was right... After that night, he don’t waste his time to be drinking too much anymore, because each time he wanted to sleep, those voices kept on coming back to his mind.
Matsumoto Jun felt his heart triggers when their cries were tormenting his heart. “Argh!! Why does it all have to be like this!?” he asked himself infuriately as he turned around from his position before facing upward on his bed towards the side. He grimaces alone, as he felt how rapidly his heart was palpitating. He recalled back once before when he met the old man at the side of the road before had said to him once again after a few days of his suffer alone...
“Find another existence of your life from another side of the world that have suffered the pain as you do to end it all...” the man said to him in a sullen voice.
It wasn’t a few days ago but it has passed almost a year ago and the voice of that man were still playing around his mind. He did try to find that man once again but he still couldn’t find him. He had went from Tokyo, to Fukuoka, to Osaka, Nagoya and ended up all of his way to Hokkaido to find whoever it is and was it even true that there is another person that is like him exist in this world beyond his imagination to get to know who he really was, but there was no luck. He still trying to understand what did that man had said to him about somebody else that has a ‘gift’ just likes him... And only if he had met the other person, the pain and suffer that they both had like this will end. Perhaps at the end of time where the world collides, he would find whoever it was.
Matsumoto sighed, “I don’t think so it is possible...” he said alone as he still believed that he was the only one that is alive and is like that. Matsumoto sighed and he turned his body around and fell flat on his bed once again, sealing his eyes shut as he tries not to think about anything anymore. The voices that he had heard before had decreased somehow at the end. He heard the clock in his room was still ticking as he opened his eyes for a short time to looked at what was the time right then. He inhaled a deep breath as it was already three in the morning and he was still wide awake and haven’t slept yet.
After so long years of trying his luck, finally he had reached his dream to be who he wanted to become in life, but this is not the way to end it all...
“When will all of this end...” he said to himself as breathe in and out slowly as the voices that he had heard before fades away and he was only left there on his own. He felt his heart ease finally as at the end; he had fallen to sleep... How he wanted to wake up and was no longer alive anymore... He knows that if he couldn’t find whoever that person that was told to him, it would be the end of his life... and he knows that some part of him isn’t ready to die yet.
‘I will find whoever you are...’ he said in heart before he was captured in his fantasy and dreams.
**
As the night he has long to end has passed away, as another day has started as the sun that was hidden from the atmosphere before has came back to life, brightens up the world that before was dark cold and grey, everybody started to live their life like their normal and regular days. Everybody was busy with their daily jobs for those who were working, and some were busy with their studies for some who are still in the Universities and some are not doing anything at all, but that was super busy inside one of the best Tokyo Event Management’s office as there was an event to be coming up soon at the town.
A man that was wearing a light brown shirt was printing all the documents that needed for the preparation as he didn’t even hear that somebody was calling for his name. “Ninomiya San!” somebody called for him, but he didn’t even bother to turn around and look at what the person wanted from him. He raised his eyebrow, “What is it?” he asked Miyoko, hid new secretary there who had called for him. He heard her footsteps were walking towards his direction and her breath that doesn’t seems to be at ease at all. She was gasping for some air, and it made him wondered on his own, ‘What is it with this girl?’ he asked in his heart when she stopped right beside him. He heard that she was still breathing uneasy. He raised his eyebrow and turned his gaze towards her.
Miyoko Fujiwara, a fresh diploma holder from the Tokyo University only started working there for just two weeks. Her age was only twenty four years old but it seems like she looked slightly younger than she was supposed to look and that day, she was wearing a bright yellow blouse with a black pants and looking gorgeous like she always does. She was inhaling a deep breath to keep her calm for a short time and looked away from Ninomiya Ka\unari’s direction and finally manages to looked at him once again after a few second had passed.
“Ninomiya San, I have something to ask regarding the event tomorrow,” she said to him as she was holding some documents in her hand. Ninomiya looked at her when he took the proposal letter in her hand, “What is it that you are not sure about?” he asked her. Ninomiya is one of the managers in the company and he always is one of the people that would be managing an event if there are any upcoming events.
He flipped the papers of the documents he was holding in his hand. He bite his lips lightly as he inhaled a deep breath when he see most of it were already settled for the 6th Anniversay for the Prime Mall of Tokyo. “It seems like its all good here, Miyoko,” he said to her, but somehow Miyoko felt frightens, but she only nodded her head, “But Sir....” she tried to tell him something but Ninomiya already changed the page of a proposal that was still unsigned... Ninomiya looked at the paper that was still clean and proper, “You couldn’t manage to get his signature for the agreement of the guest artist for this event is it?” he asked Miyoko directly. Miyoko nodded her head, “I know that Prime Mall wanted him to be the star of the night, but I tried to call him so many times, but I was rejected each time I tried to reach for him...” she said to Ninomiya.
Ninomiya only nodded his head, “I understand that, Miyoko.” he said to the girl. She bite her lips lightly as she was afraid if her manager would get angry with her, but he didn’t say much. Ninomiya inhaled a deep breath as his mind were playing around with himself on how to get this so call big super star of Japan to go to the anniversary. Perhaps it is not a problem for Prime Mall to be paying him even though at a high cost because they really wanted him to be there, but it could be too that this guy wanted a raise. Maybe because his name is on top of the list, he don’t think that 500,000 yen is enough for the pay.
‘I will get your ass to the anniversary in anyway.’ he said in his heart. He turned his gaze to look at Miyoko, “It’s okay. You can hand this to me,” he said to her. Miyoko only nodded her head, “Yes, Sir.” she said to him and went away from there. Ninomiya inhaled a deep breath when he looke at the proposal letter that was still empty and the anniversary only left two more days and without him realizing anything, it seems like the day that has been going on for quite sometimes would end soon as the sky outside has dimmed down slightly already.
Ninomiya closed his eyes shut for a short time, “I will get you no matter what, Matsumoto Jun,” he said in a tone that nobody could even hear him and closed the document in his hand. He doesn’t know why, but he really want this guy to come.
**
“I need some time off!” he said on his own when he walked out from his bedroom and went towards the kitchen. The time on the clock was already eight forty five at night and his days didn’t seems that easy that day as he was so packed up with the preparation for his upcoming album release and all. Matsumoto opened his fridge door when he grabbed the bottle of orange juice and pour it into the empty glass that he had grabbed earlier before he went there. He took a sip of the juice and put the empty glass in the sink as he felt relieved when the cold juice went down his body. “That felt just nice,” he said alone when he was on his way towards his living room hall.
He grabbed the remote control on the table in front of the couch that he sat almost every day and turned on the television to see if there was any updates on the daily world. “Maybe I should take some time off soon.” He said to himself when he sat on the deep blue couch and rested his arms on the side of the couch and closed his eyes for a short time. He could only listen to the voices from the television.
“We couldn’t wait to see Matsumoto Jun on the Prime Mall anniversary!” a few girls screamed as they were interviewed on those pop culture television show. Those voices that kept on talking about how excited they were to see him didn’t excite him at all, “As if I agreed to go,” he said alone when he felt slightly irritated with the programme, he opened his eyes once again and changes the television programme to something else. Sure it is because of them, he had reached up until that level. Sure if it wasn’t for them, who was he that day, but he guess that nobody knows what he was going through with his life.
“I guess it is just my problem alone...” he said in his heart when suddenly he heard his mobile phone rang. He furrowed his eyebrow when he wondered who would be calling him at this time. “I thought they said there isn’t any more project tonight!” he groaned so hard and took out the phone from his jeans pocket. He just reached home from work, and he still didn’t changes what he had worn earlier yet as he wanted to take a short time on his own.
He furrowed his eyes when he looked at the number that was calling him was unknown in his phone, “Who would be calling me?” he wondered alone. The ringing tone kept on playing, when he felt in his heart he doesn’t want to pick it up, but he was doubtful if it could be something that was important. “If it is you, Mr Hiyoshi, I would kill you,” he said as he thought about his manager. He pressed the answer button, “Hello.” he said in a mid tempo tone.
“Hello there, Mr. Matsumoto. I am Ninomiya Kazunari from Tokyo Dailylife and I wanted to ask you regarding the proposal of the Prime Mall Anniversary.” he heard the man speak to him. Matsumoto furrowed his eyebrow, ‘I thought I already say no...’ he said in his heart.
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